Be Still, My Heart!!! - Page 9

Just an update, I do believe that Qara has found her forever home, it's not set in stone just yet but they have made a verbal commitment. She also recently lost her GSD at 8 years young. She came out last night to meet Qara and of course fell in love, I had warned her that she would if she came out and even told her about this thread, because she too was not sure if she was ready just yet. But alas she came out, fell in love as I knew she would and realized just how special Qara is. Now its just a matter of deciding which day she will take her home. I'm glad it seems as though none of you had noticed the video I added of her to her ad, all she wanted to do was sit in front of me LOL. Such a good girl.

Marjorie, it looks as though you are off the hook this time. As much as I agree she would have been great for you I commend you for sticking to your guns, hard as it was I'm sure, and doing what you know was right for you at this time. I do still pray though that you will not give up on these great dogs, there are good ones out there, I promise you :) I hope to hear from you sometime down the road when and if you are ready to open your heart again. Thank you all so much for the kind words about Qara, I wish you all could have met her, she truly is an old soul. Maybe now that she has a home, her beautiful sister will stand a chance LOL. Qara is pretty stiff competition as she works people over pretty good with those sweet, sweet eyes :) Here's a pic of them together last night :)

I am so happy to hear that Qara sounds like she will have a loving home- she just stole my heart. I told so many of my friends about her, and some people in my group who had lost their dogs that there was one special pup that had stolen my heart, and put up links to the thread so they could see this special girl, if they fel they were ready for another dog. I said if they were ready, she was the one. If someone from my group purchased her, I would know she would be in the home of someone who would walk on water for her, if they had to. I dreaded the day she found her forever home, as I wanted her to be with me, but being fearful and waiting for  the proverbial hammer to fall is no way to raise a dog, even if it that hammer will never fall. Qara deserves more. If I ever get my courage up, I  will be banging on your door, but, if I couldnt  overcome my fear for Qara, I cannot forsee me EVER getting over my fears :( I am in kind of a PTSD state.  I will just have to watch everyone's puppy pics and ogle the pups, save those whose people feel they are disposable and get them out of harm's way, but none will have my heart like Qara... I was being ripped apart- sounds silly, doesnt it, by my fears- not for whatever money it would cost, if anything ever happened, but the emotional  toll and physical cost of ever having to walk that DM road again. I couldnt cope- I know I could not, physically or mentally.

No- I didnt see the video- maybe God spared me knowing how drawn I was to her. However, now that you mention it, I will have to go and look....LOL!  I just cant resist. It would be nice if time to time, when you get an update on her, that you would post it or PM it to me. Not that I have any right to it, but I know it sounds odd, but I love her madly without even seeing her in person.  She has velcro dog eyes... I am truly a tortured person, over her, but i know it wouldnt be fair to her. I am just physically incapable, right now, of giving her what she would need. I cant even walk more than block, with Casey James (my hips, my back and my wrists  took a beating from caring for Missie T, and physically, I am not improving. I dont know that it will improve, without surgery, and at this point, surgery is out of the question. Someone would have to shoot me with a tranquilizer dart to get me to a hospital for surgery.) Luckily, Casey is a high energy dog that loves to swim and run around the yard, never getting bored. He can for  hours at a time, without stopping. He has energy to burn ! He is happy doing that, with just my company. I bought a go dog go for him, where it fires the ball automatically for him to chase, so I dont make my wrists and elbows any worse than they are. I am hoping that eventually my body will heal, but my hips and back back bones rub together, now, causing me much pain. Its hard to find a place for me where i can be comfortable, in bed at night. I wont take pain killers. I am not sorry, in the least, that I gave my all to caring for Missie T, and I wont regret it, even if I never heal, she was such a special girl, and that expression I see in Qara's eyes and her face let me know she is that kind of special girl. I will regret, for me, not purchasing her, but for her, it is best I did not, and that was my main concern. She deserves more and she doesnt deserve a selfish owner. She will have her own needs to be able to fulfill her potential and will need to get out for socialization. At this point I couldnt walk more than a block if someone held a gun to my head :( I think one of the reasons DH fought me so is because he knew that physically, I just couldnt do what is needed to raise a well rounded pup, at this time, without making my injuries worse. I think he was worried about me. I know he adores Casey James, and he still tears up, as I do, about Missie T. This was such a tough decision, and  although I made the wrong decision for my heart, I  made the right one for Qara. Qara is the most important, as she has her whole life ahead of her. The photo of her with her potential owner is just beautiful :) I wish them many happy years together :)
Marjorie
http://www.gsdbbr.org The German Shepherd Dog Breed Betterment Registry (a health registry for registered German Shepherds)
BE PROACTIVE!
http://mzjf.com -->  The Degenerative Myelopathy Support Group http://www.mzjf.info/hgate Heaven's Gate

Well it is a sure thing now for Qara, that is her forever home. Marjorie I look forward to the day when you come banging on my door, I will know that another of my puppies will be getting a wonderful and loving home with an owner that would go to the ends of the earth and back for them :) I sent her new owner a link to this thread just now, so she can read how many people Qara has already touched and affected in her four months on this earth :) She is truly special and I would love to keep you updated on her as I get updates from her new mommy. Thank you for loving her as though she was yours already, I believe she must have felt it, which made her even more special to those that met her. I hope your body and heart is able to heal soon and that your Casey James lives a long full life. But I know I will see you later....and I mean that :)

Barbie

Thanks, Barbie...... That means alot to me. I am so glad I know she is going to a great home. A beautiful girl and a beautiful pup- what a pair! :) I know her sweet soul will always bring her owner pleasure- those kinds of dogs never have a bad day- they always smile, are full of love, and to me, thats a perfect dog- it doesnt get any better than that...
http://www.gsdbbr.org The German Shepherd Dog Breed Betterment Registry (a health registry for registered German Shepherds)
BE PROACTIVE!
http://mzjf.com -->  The Degenerative Myelopathy Support Group http://www.mzjf.info/hgate Heaven's Gate

looking at that picture those to beauties belong together.  I hope one day we will see Marjorie in a very similar picture.  I hate to see or hear heart breaking stories like Marjorie,  it just shouldn't be that way.

She fit right into the new mama's arms like a glove didn't she;  what a beautiful story.  Marjorie;  I truly undestand why you are waiting but am so sorry you missed out on her.  BOL with your boy,  Nan

Thanks, Nans GSD... It surely was a good fit for both...Her new owner will experience the true bond that happens with that type of dog, and it is truly an amazing bond.  Thanks for the well wishes for Casey James :)
http://www.gsdbbr.org The German Shepherd Dog Breed Betterment Registry (a health registry for registered German Shepherds)
BE PROACTIVE!
http://mzjf.com -->  The Degenerative Myelopathy Support Group http://www.mzjf.info/hgate Heaven's Gate

Happy to say this story gets a great ending. I am going to be deleting her ad tonight, I know you will all miss looking at her sweet face, so save her pics while it's still up LOL!! Marjorie, I know I will talk with you again, thanks so much for all your love you sent to Qara :)

Barbie

You know I saved them, Barbie!!! Give her a kiss for me before she leaves, please. I know I did the right thing for her, which is the most important.. that cuts down on my misery...  :-/

http://www.gsdbbr.org The German Shepherd Dog Breed Betterment Registry (a health registry for registered German Shepherds)
BE PROACTIVE!
http://mzjf.com -->  The Degenerative Myelopathy Support Group http://www.mzjf.info/hgate Heaven's Gate